Poem of Loneliness

sirius · February 24, 2003, 06:17

thirst
for the consistent claret of life
so bleed your tears from the open wrist
and let your humanity float away
with the blood of lifelong sorrow

see
that I need you, that I feed from you
don't you take yourself away from me
die, so that you too can feel mercy
you couldn't endure this loneliness that i bear

pity
yourself so that you don't pity others
your haughtyness torments me
your inanimate life doesn't tempt me
live like everybody, die like nobody

surrender
is not defeat but triumph
death is inevitable, so don't reject it
cast this life of grief away
you know you'd rather die today

sirius · February 24, 2003, 06:40

Life Is...

life is
when your foundation
yields
and you fall
deeper and deeper
into your missery
for each breath
you take

life is
when you're going blind
from your tears
and wander
deeper and deeper
into your sorrows
for each mile
you travel

life is
when your feet
won't carry you
and you sink
deeper and deeper
into your depression
for each step
you take

life is
the time it takes
to die...

sirius · February 24, 2003, 06:56

i am alone

mismatched to my world
tortured by the image
burned into the sky
taught to be small
while i grew larger and larger
words of softness
used to place me
set like jewels
yet i hold evil
like a lifeline
i play the part
i live the lie
i can only survive
by blinding myself
with a double edged blade
though I feel its warmth
I will never see the sun

bryan_lau · February 28, 2003, 04:20

aku bermimpi

tentang sebuah pohon
diatas bukit terjal
berdiri rapuh ditempa angin
sendiri .....
tanpa teman
tanpa sanak..
saat panas datang
kulitnya terbakar mentari
saat salju turun
ia menggigil...
sesekali terdengar isaknya
sayup tertiup angin..
hilang ditelan kelam..
hingga suatu saat
datang seekor burung
lelah dan ketakutan
sarangnya hancur
diterjang badai..
saat dilihatnya pohon itu
hinggaplah dia
lega melepas lelah
tubuh mungilnya aman
terlindung rimbun dedaunan
sang pohon tersentak
ini kali pertama
ia bersentuhan dengan kehidupan
dirasakannya setiap gerakan
nafas sang burung kecil
sesekali sang burung tertunduk
air matanya jatuh
perlahan....
menyentuh pucuk dedaunan
mengalir ke batang...
ranting..dan
akhirnya menyentuh tubuh sang pohon
menggetarkannya..
sang pohon merenung..
aku tahu perasaan itu..
aku tahu pedih itu..
aku tahu sakit itu..
aku tahu..kawan kecilku..
tumpahkan saja semuanya..
lepaskan saja semuanya..
biar menyatu..
dengan perihku..
sang pohon menggerakkan dahannya
membuai tubuh burung kecil..
burung kecil mulai terlena..
lelahnya menjadi raja..
sang pohon mengulurkan dedaunan
menaungi burung kecil
rantingnya menjaga
akhirnya burung kecil
tertidur..
damaipun datang..
sang pohon tersenyum
aku juga tahu damai itu
saat engkau tahu
engkau telah tiba
di persemayaman
saat engkau tahu
engkau aman..
engkau terjaga dengan baik
aku takut..
aku sedih..
aku sakit..
tapi saat itu..
aku juga tenang..
damai...
aku tidak pernah tumbang..
karena aku aman..
aku terjaga dengan baik..
selamat datang kawan kecilku..
temani aku disini
bersama damai
yang kaucari.

aku terjaga dari mimpi
tak ada lagi pohon
dan burung kecil..
yang ada aku..
menantikan burung kecilku
hinggap dan aman
dalam perlindunganku
berbagi damai dan cinta
yang aku rasakan
dari Bapaku.

Q`tee · February 28, 2003, 04:21

kurang panjang ajah man

bryan_lau · February 28, 2003, 04:26

Jenjang masa merentang
Ungkapan rasa kian mendalam
Naluri untuk berbagi dan memberi
Larut didalam asa
Yang nyata dan berharga

Menatap jalan di hadapan
Antara mimpi dan harapan
Resahku kini hilang
Impian terwujud sudah
Astana bahagia tegak menjulang
Nestapa berganti suka
Andaikan esok itu sekarang

sirius · February 28, 2003, 06:17

hi Bryan & Q'tee,

welcome to my lonely place

La Lune · February 28, 2003, 08:37

Brothaaaa.... akhirnaaa!!! Welkom..welkom to this cute lil' forum!

Q`tee · February 28, 2003, 18:21

alow sirius

maap yah kita2 masuk ga ketok pintu dulu

bryan_lau · February 28, 2003, 23:36

dear sirius <thanks bole gabung ke sini...jadi terharu..hiks..hiks

sirius · March 01, 2003, 15:01

hi adik bulan.

akhirnya kita pindahan juga ke sini

udah ada tamu q'tee ama bryan. welkom welkom....

sirius · March 01, 2003, 15:28

Distance and Darkness

a friendship once had
now is gone
lost in a void of darkness
the room is empty and warm
but yet it's still cold
we're here close together
but we're miles apart inside
inside is the distance
infinite miles of pain
outside is closeness
only feet away from Love
but the distance grows farther
a strange enchantment flowing
love still lingers
though it loses it's hold
the darkness grows deeper
leaving no sign of light
so what happens now?
is it even worth the fight?

sirius · March 01, 2003, 15:29

i allowed you into my heart

knowing it would not last

i was willing to take the chance

regardless of my past

sirius · March 01, 2003, 15:30

those who have played the game

skillful as i never could be

masters of hidden words

snide in their mockery

sirius · March 01, 2003, 15:33

i trust again and again

knowing the result

foolish hopes and dreams

adding injury to insult